I'm going to a Labor Day picnic with the Teske family today, and whenever the rest of them get home from the mall we're leaving right away...so I don't know how much time I have on here...

I'm oh-so-excited about going to SEATTLE tomorrow! Minnesota is the farthest west i've been (gasp of disbelief, murmurs of horror) and so I'll be breaking new ground! I have to get up REALLY early for me (like 5:30) to take the bus to the airport, but I don't think it will be bad, I enjoy the Minneapolis bus system. AND I'll get to ride the new lightrail. ;)

Yesterday, in response to my last post, Emily asked if I would go to church if it WAS more real, less of a fake bubble. The answer is YES. Then I could take these questions there, and talk about them. Without the pastor throwing in 'the right answer' and everyone agreeing because they don't want to took heretical. I want to go to church without being afraid of seeming heretical just because I have TONS of doubts. TONS of questions. I got myself into the psych ward by denying the things I was really feeling, and I'm not going to live that way anymore. And I'm still pretty new at this. I'm not sure I'm strong enough to take my self somewhere where I may run into opposition, or disapproval. Like a church. But I figure God's a big boy, and if He's really forever like I've been told, then this will work itself out one way or another.